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lightningleslie:

For Brianna

Life needs secret plans.

To Alana and Jason, to their beautiful children, to a beautiful life. To a farm of fruition, to a culture of wellness, to the human spirit. To wild flowers from Ticas and breathtaking sunrises over a misty valley. to rice and vegetables, sleeping in a schoolbus. To didgeridoo at sunset, a forever smiling baby, picking oranges and chasing goats back into their pens. To graceful windmills in the clouds of a vast and sublime landscape. To growth, to love, to bliss. To the journey, to the destination, to the dream. To finding exactly what I was looking for.

The fates have been conspiring. In a rapid and unfortunate series of events, my companion to Costa Rica will not be accompanying me. I’m really disappointed that Amber will not be coming with me; for months I’ve been daydreaming about the fun we would have. I imagined us partners in crime, trail-blazing and keeping one another constantly amused with our quirky humor. Finding out I’ll be goin’ in alone has been a difficult transition. I’ve traveled alone before… but in Thailand I was well adjusted to the cultural landscape and felt established and confident. My initial reaction is be nervous and overwhelmed. I find myself at the edge of a precipice and my competing feelings make me feel almost neutral. Numbed is maybe a more appropriate word. I’ve never been timid or afraid to be outside my element, but I’ve always arrived at my destination with some system of support awaiting me. The more I think of it though, the bolder I feel. I don’t have the same girlish excitement I did when I was planning to go with Amber. I do have the sense that, like a much beloved quote, I’ll be throwing myself on the benevolence of the world, hoping to emerge unscathed and transformed. This twist of fate may be a blessing in disguise. This is a skill I need to learn… a skill that I want to learn; to dive into an unfamiliar world with no one beside me, an opportunity to perfect my self-reliance, to test my adaptability, to flirt with the unknown, to be outlandish and open and live the plot of a romantic travel memoir. I had no plans to begin, but I had a vague idea of what lay ahead. Now there is an opaque membrane between the present and the future.

Here goes nothing.

Truth and beauty bombs. For the love of mankind, watch.

lidocainemilkshake:

speech for humanity:charlie chaplin in “the great dictator” 1940.